the ongoing angst of a neurotic fantasy baseball manager

in my fantasy baseball draft, i chose outfielder chris b. young of the arizona diamondbacks in the 10th round. i stand by this selection. i needed a third outfielder; his upside is high; the outfielder taken in the pick before mine was delmon young, and the next outfielder taken was torii hunter, so i think i took him in the right spot in the draft. but he's a rookie, and he was off to a slow start, so i said to myself that he needed to earn his lineup spot. which he did, in a big way, yesterday, with a 3 run HR. i had seriously considered playing him yesterday because he was up against a very weak pitcher, but, in the end, benched him - meaning i did not get any points for that. my whole offense has been starting a little slow, and i could really have used those points. arrrrrrrrrrrggggggggh.

i even had a dream last night that, instead of just hitting one HR while benched, he had actually hit 3, and had gotten like 6 RBIs, and that one of the other guys on my bench had 2 HR's and 3 RBIs, meaning i was actually out 5 HR's and 9 RBIs. which would actually have been a huge freakin' deal. 1 HR, 3 RBIs... not so important.